On October 1, 1996 I lost a very special person: my son, Jason. He was 3 years old. It was unexpected and I’m left with the feelings of anger and emptiness.
There is one big message I would like to get out to everyone….. Trust your heart , not the doctors! We have learned the hard way that doctors do not know everything. And there are a lot of doctors out there who are in it just for the money. Please, if you ever feel uncomfortable with a doctor…..find another one! You do not have to just take the advice of the doctor and let that be that. You have every right to ask why they feel that way and are you sure. A lot of people think they don’t have the right to question a doctor and they are wrong. The degree they received does not make them miracle workers like so many think they are. So…I can not stress enough. Trust your heart! When you feel there is something wrong with your child and the doctor says don’t worry, then go to someone else that will take the time to find out.
My heart goes out to all who have lost a child. I know the pain you go through and no one else can understand it. Before my son passed away, I kept hearing of children dying from the news on TV and the newspapers. I got to a point where I couldn’t read the paper or watch the news anymore because of all the pain I felt for the families. When the Oklahoma bombing happened I was watching the news and when they announced there was a daycare on the bottom floor and children had died, I cried for days. I would look at my 3 boys and couldn’t EVER imagine what I’d do if one had died. I’m in such pain and miss that little guy! It breaks my heart so bad when Jason’s brothers look up at the sky and do their I Love You sign to him. Or his 5 year old brother says to me, “One day, when we grow up, Jason will come back”. Or his 8 year old brother will say in a prayer ” I wish you didn’t have to leave us, I miss you.”